I am gay
I have never done anything gay in my life with another guy.
A virgin I have not done anything with girls either.
That is on purpose due to the fact I am gay.
No one knows I am gay.
A lot of people question mostly my parents, and siblings.
Only three people have asked. Any chance you are gay bro, son, dude?
My brother, my dad, and a friend it's weird I can't talk about this.
The fact I lie and changed the subject is not helping.
No one wants to be gay, we just want to love that way.
Sadly the two go together, like rain and getting wet.
You are gay period, and can only limit their exposure to gay stuff.
I have a plan in my head and this gets resolved.
I meet Mr. Right Gay Guy first, and then come out to the world.
Once, if or when rejected by friends and family.
My ass is covered by Mr. Right Gay Guy I am so not alone.
There is a plan B somewhere in the back of my head.
It could be done in unison with Plan A.
If Mr. Right Gay Guy don't show up anytime soon.
I just might mean I have to come out first, the worst idea ever.
Gay without love is a tragedy and depressing.
Even pleasure is very scary from where I am at, having never done that.
I just want a chance to love someone back, screw the details.
This, right now, hurts so much more because of the unknown.
Me longing for someone to hold, and to hold me back.
I don't want to be alone in more but can't come out.
The fact is I am afraid of gay sex.
And my heart after the gay sex part.
I am hoping all that changes with my first gay kiss.
That touch with his hand down my back slowly to my butt.
His chewing on my neck might make things easier.
A gay guy in the closet can dream at least.
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